Optimism

It goes beyond seeing the “glass” as “half full” or noticing the “silver lining” on all of life’s “clouds”. Maybe, being optimistic means being happier than everyone else thinks you should be. It’s smiling and laughing when everyone would completely understand if you broke down. It’s pushing through when all of your friends are telling you to give it up. Optimism isn’t just keeping a positive attitude, but also acting on it. It’s praying to God when you’re not sure if he’s listening; wishing on 11:11 when you’re questioning if that really works. It’s falling asleep every single night and allowing yourself to really dream. It’s giving second, third, and fourth chances because you’re convinced that the world really can change. It’s riding on luck, even when you’re life has been unlucky.

I always used to think that first impressions were everything, and I never uses to believe in second chances. Now, though, I believe in fourth, fifth, sixth chances. The truth is, everyone is a let down. I don’t say that to be pessimistic, I just think that its human nature to establish high and unrealistic expectations for people, and then to be disappointed. Your best friends let you down sometimes, your family lets you down sometimes, and most of all, we let ourselves down. Of course this all hurts, sometimes more than others. Sometimes we are brought down so low and cut so deeply that we become sick and heartbroken over it. But…I guess that you can’t negatively judge a person because something they did to hurt you. Because, aside from being let downs, people generally good. They don’t mean to cause heartbreak, especially to the ones they’re close to. I think, in the end, you’re never going to find a love that doesn’t make you cry, or sick to your stomach, or who doesn’t give you ten million migraines. Love isn’t about finding someone who doesn’t hurt you…humans are imperfect, with rough edges and un-polished exterioirs. Everyone will end up hurting you, though probably unintentionally. Love is about finding someone who you’re willing to suffer for. Someone who, in the end, brings you up a million times higher than they could ever let you fall.